Can it Get Better?

A week ago tomorrow, my best friend blessed me and Kyle with a perfect Godson. Elijah Raymond was born just after 12:30 in the afternoon, officially making it the best Monday ever! Mom is doing great after her natural birth, which I am so proud of her over. I am so thankful that she let me be a part of that experience, and then chose me to help care for her son, and also help bring him up strong in faith. I look forward to every future moment I will have with him ❤


Something else super awesome also happened on Monday, we found out we are approved for move in! It’s driving me crazy for real now! We went and picked out new carpet, and paint colors for the living room. We also went to IKEA and drooled over the many things we want to improve our space. I can not wait to start this new chapter with my love.

I’ve packed up three more boxes this evening, and my walls are getting empty. It’s sad to see my childhood finally be over… at 26 lol. I suppose I held on as long as I could. It’s going to be interesting seeing how all of my old belongings will fit into my more mature life…but lets get this next chapter started!


Moving On


I’m excited and exhausted. And stressed…but most of all excited! Tomorrow we will be finding out if we have been approved by the community we are trying to move into. We will be buying our first home from a friend that is moving up north. It’s far from our dream home, but we will be together, and that’s what matters.

I have began the purging/packing of all of my belongings. I’m 5+ boxes packed from my room, plus all of the things already packed in storage. We have started buying furniture to fit the place we will be living.

I can’t wait till next month. Next month we will be moving, painting, and cleaning. I can hardly stand waiting for our first night together in our own place. We will be one step closer to our lives together.

We are so blessed with all of the positive things that have been happening in our lives. I can’t wait for the next step. ❤



I have decided to try to do the gratitude challenge. The first 10 things are physical abilities.

1. I am thankful for the ability to speak and express my feelings to others around me. I’m glad I can share my emotions.

2. I am thankful for my hearing. I love music and I can’t imagine not being able to hear it.

3. I am thankful for the full use of my limbs. I never knew how much I appreciated my legs, feet, and my ability to walk, until my grandma lost her leg.

4. I am very blessed to have artistic talent that I express through my drawing and painting. Some people dislike art and others probably can not make it because of one physical problem or another. Art and creating it and huge parts of who I am.

5. I am thankful for my somewhat flawed eye sight. I realize that it could be much worse, but am so glad I can see as well as I can with the help of contacts/glasses. One of the best parts of art is being able to look at it.

6. The ability to stretch. Can I just say thank you for how amazing it feels to stretch? After a long stressful anything a good stretch just feels so good.

7. I am thankful that I am somewhat strong and physically able. I can run (not far) jump, and play sports for fun. I have strength to lift and push/pull things. I’m pretty lucky.

8. I am thankful for being pretty flexible. A lot of people have limited flexibility and it limits the things they want to do. I can still move around like a teenager when I want to.

9. I am thankful that my body has worked with me through many things that could have been way worse physical injuries. Lets face it, I’m not the most careful person lol.

10. I am thankful that I can still have the chance to use my physical abilities to their fullest. I can still get in better shape and work harder on many things, how cool is that?

Basics About Me

I failed math in high school, and again in college, but my current job is constant numbers and keeping track of large sums of money.

Sleep is my favorite thing to do, even if I have been having odd vivid dreams lately.

My dream is to someday work from home so that I can raise my future children while also bringing in an income.

I do not remember what it feels like to be bored, or fully rested. The last few months have been non stop.

I have so many clothes, that I haven’t worn the same top to work since I started my job in March. I’m no where near running out of laundry…

I am petrified of certain people working their way back into my life. Some things I’d like to forget and pretend never happened.

I have a short fuse, but can never seem to stay angry long. Sit it out, it will pass lol.

I am allergic to nuts, especially almonds and I hate it. I developed the allergy around age 12.

I love summer storms and the smell of rain.

I’m glad my life didn’t work out the way I had wanted at 18. What a mess that would have been!

Time Flies

Five years ago today you came into my life.

After a long day of labor for your mother, I was lucky enough to watch you be born. Something I think will only be topped by the birth of my own children.

Today, you are a blessing to every heart you touch. You have a deep need to love and take care of others. Something that can seem like a bad thing to others at times, but I hope it’s something you always hold on to. I hope myself and the other adults in your life teach you to be strong, smart and independent.


Today, you have a strong sense of self, full of confidence, not caring what others think about you. Please hold on to that. You are fiery soul, passionate in all you do. Live your life fearlessly baby girl! Dream big! And always know Aunt Chris loves you.

Happy 5th Birthday Rylie Hope Shay!!!

Recovering from the Plague



Have you ever felt like you were drowning on your own bodily fluids? After a weekend of waking up every hour with that lovely feeling, plus body aches, I finally went to the hospital. Not that I needed a hospital visit, but no one would take the insurance I currently have except the hospital, so there I went.

A 5 min. look over by a doctor told me I had a sinus infection that had turned into a lovely case of bronchitis. As much as I am trying to move away from pharmaceutical medication, my immune system has always had issues, and I needed help kicking this. Two of the prescriptions I was given I decided were useless and haven’t been used, but the antibiotic has seemed to help a lot.

I returned to work yesterday and struggled through my day. The Plague, as my co-workers and I lovingly call it, seems to be controlled at work aside from the random coughing fits and constant stuffy/runny nose. Today I am just a little bit better, but still run down and such.

Hopefully the road to recovery is almost over. I hate being sick, yet I always am. Allergies plus a weak immune system, plus a not so perfect life style I guess lead you there, but how many times must I suffer?



A lot like leveling up…




This last week has been crazy, non stop, go go go. Last Wednesday my Grandpa was put in the hospital and the family came to the realization that he may not be with us much longer. He is 92, and for 92 he is doing quite well. He just got sick and it was scary for everyone. Now it’s time for them to release him but they want to send him to a nursing home. He is against the idea, and for the most part, the family is too. He still takes very good care of himself. My cousin lives there and makes sure he is ok. My Aunt also checks up on him. If he wants to spend time in the house he worked his whole life for, let him.

Last Friday was the official 1 year (facebook official) anniversary of Kyle and I being together. In reality it will be 2 years for us September 1st. We went out with our co workers and my wife for dinner at Bdubs. I got my fish bowl! It was a lot of fun to spend time out and get to know our new friends a little better.

Saturday was Kyle’s birthday. My best friend since childhood came out to visit and we put Kyle’s birthday gift to good use. Yes, I am the girlfriend that bought beer for Valentine’s day, and ammo for his birthday, I’m pretty much a keeper! We went out and shot guns and partied in a field for most of the day. We got to see lab puppies and pet horses.

On Sunday, Kyle and I were baptized at our church. All of the people closest to us were there, even some unexpected ones. It has something we have been planning for a long time and is our next step in our faith. I am so glad we are growing together in our love for God as well as each other.

Monday was Memorial day, and we were patriotic in our own way. Hung the flags, had our silent moments of remembrance, and the men drank their beer from red, white, and blue cans! We visited Kyle’s dad and had a very nice BBQ. I was so happy to soak my feet in the lake, even if it is still far too cold for me to swim in.

And finally, Tuesday was my 26th birthday. I like to think all of the work I have done on myself in the last year is a lot like the work you do to level up in a video game. I have changed and grown so much as a person, and I still have so much work I want to do. I am very proud of myself. I have already checked off one of the things from my personal bucket list (being baptized) and I’m working on 2 more. One being getting my own health insurance, I will have that once my 90 days is up at work. The other being moving out of my parents house. Kyle and I are researching places to live and saving money. I’m on the right road.