Archive | January 2014

Not the Way It’s Supposed to Be


Well… Here it is, the first Tuesday of the month, almost a whole week into the new year, and I haven’t been able to do anything toward my resolutions like I had planned. The weather has kept me at home, or my boyfriend’s house. I actually haven’t been to my own house since Thursday. And I was only home Thursday night, then came back here Friday. I love being with my boyfriend, but I miss my house. I miss my dog. I miss my “space”. Not that he is smothering me or anything. I just like my belongings and such. I’ve been here almost a week. so I haven’t gotten any of the cleaning or organizing done at home. I also haven’t been to work when the road conditions were “safe” so I haven’t used my fancy new gym membership yet. That makes me so sad! I have been trying to eat better. I added some organic foods, but they were crazy expensive. And I’m eating more fruits and vegetables at each meal. Sadly I had no choice yesterday but to eat at McDonald’s, something I hadn’t done in months. I was at work with no lunch and only a few dollars and no choice but McDonald’s. Yuck.

I am also adding a new resolution to my list I haven’t posted yet, and that is to find a new job. I feel that I have outgrown the thinking of the management of the company I currently work for. I feel I am worth more as an employee than the way I have been treated recently. Time to move on.

I’m hoping I can make it home tonight, but then it worries me about trying to get to work in the morning. My street gets really bad snow drifts. But I miss my house. I just want to get back on track with where I’m supposed to be…

All I can do is keep trying I guess.


Falling Short and Starting Over


Ok…so I didn’t complete my 30 days of Thanks blogs, or my 31 days of Change project on Facebook like I had wanted to, but I have some good reasons. Thanksgiving about knocked me out. I was very busy this year with trying to take over for my mother, due to her health issues. And then I came down with a sinus infection which I thought was an ear infection because of the pain I was having. Add in work, Christmas shopping, wrapping, trying to keep track of dates, times, and money and I just couldn’t keep up. It was a crazy few weeks for me. It seemed everyone wanted something from me, and I just had nothing to give because of not feeling well.

But, the new year is here! Welcome 2014, I hope you are ready for me because I have plans for you! One of my biggest goals for this year is to take control of my health. I need to be healthier. I have signed up for a gym membership  (and if the roads hadn’t been so bad today, I would have been there…), and am trying to cut a lot of the bad things from my diet. I am educating myself on foods and why they are bad for me. I have already cut out McDonald’s completely because I heard a lot of bad things about the meat they feed us . I would like to lose around 30lbs and gain over all strength. I am not very physically strong, and it’s time to change that.

Not only do I want to strengthen my body, but I would also like to get the most out of my brain. I want to boost my creativity, learn new things and read more. I just started reading The Secret and I am almost done with the Happiness Project My projects and my art work also deserve a chunk of my time.

My boyfriend and I have also started saving for our wedding. No, we are not engaged yet, but why wait till then to start saving? That will just make it take longer. We have a giant jar full of all of our change, and Friday we will each be starting a 52 week money challenge We are thinking it will take us both saving for about 2 years to have the wedding that we want to have. I can’t wait to be his wife!

Saving for my dream wedding this year isn’t my only money goal, I will also continue to pay down my debt, so that once I have married Kyle we can afford things like a home or a car. I started paying down my student loan in November and I will keep working on that so that I can go back and make something better of myself. I am also going to try to start paying down my medical bills one at a time. It’s sad that all of my credit is bad credit because of medical bills. That is something I am hoping to prevent in the future by getting healthier.

Organizing my life and improving my space are also some areas I would like to focus on. I get less frustrated and my life runs better when things are organized and I am happy to be in the space I am in. I’d like to get the rest of the upstairs painted this year, before I move out of my parents house. Hopefully this will be the last year I will be living here.

My final major goal is to build my relationship with God. I found a church that I finally feel has beliefs in line with mine I just bought a new Bible as a gift to myself and I’d like to be baptized, since being baptized was a spiritual choice my parents left up to me.

I’m sure I also have a million other small goals that I will add to this list, but it’s late and I have to try to get to work in the snow in the morning. I will be posting a 2014 bucket list later on, so stay posted.